the face of gratified desire

can you believe i havent written a blog in an entire week? crazy.

its been busy, just studying for the two finals i took today. Physics was a killer, but im thinking it went ok. Although i never know what to expect, since i honestly have no idea what im doing when it comes to physics. i totally BSed my way through that one, no kidding.

For english i had no idea what to expect. We had to write an essay over the test period, and she didnt give us any clues as to what it would be on, other than one of the readings we went over this semester. we went through a lot. actually, that was my favorite class this semester. the professor was hard and gave a lot of homework, but it was fun as well as homework goes.
seriously, a class where you read stories and then discuss them? sign me up, especially before math or science or math disguised as science... coughphysicscough.
(i just realized you should definitely not read this next part if you are in my english class)
anyway, i had just read one of the required readings for the first time last night even though it was assigned like last month sometime. http://www.eecs.harvard.edu/~keith/poems/English_B.html
Theme for English B by Langston Hughes. i really loved it and didnt think much of it, but when i sat down for the test and was reading the essay question choices, i noticed that there was one for this poem. it was something like this- why does the speaker question the statement, "and let that page come out of you, then it will be true"? do you think writing requires more than it coming out of you? if so, what?
i'd love to hear your ideas to see how they compare to mine.

after everything was done, i randomly thought, hey- no more physics. ever.
just makes me very happy, thats all.

went to church with josh on saturday. i love spending time with that guy. i see God so much when i do.
i love the fact that every aspect of our relationship comes from God.
went on a bike ride today and met josh at the park. we sat and swang on the swings and i never ever wanted to come home. but here i am.

nother graduation on saturday. we've been busy with that- making a science fair panel board thing with some of my stuff on it, and a scrapbook with so so many memories, and ordering a cheesecake and stuff. i really wanted a peice of that cheesecake today.
im looking forward to this graduation. it'll be a lot smaller and more personal, and there will be so many people that i love there. afterwards i will be whisked away in josh's wing'ed The Chariot.
oh oh i cannot wait to see what my suprise is!
i love suprises.

there will be lots more time for making stuff now :)
overall, i'd say its been a good semester. especially the past month- that has been incredible in a sometimes strange way. i mean, there were good moments and bad moments, but the bad moments were just as incredible as the good ones, only in a different way.
I dont know why it happened now, but im not questioning it. God has the most absolute perfect timing; ive really experienced that this month.

im thinking im the happiest ive been in a long, long time.


gkahle (music in german)-
be kind- eisley http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zhrRJXyAwJA&feature=related
brownish spider- mewithoutyou
happiness is a warm gun- the beatles