haircuts

I'm thinking about cutting my hair.
Don't freak out. :)

I really want bangs, shorter than the ones I have now. I like the ones in this picture (just the bangs though). The problem is that my hair is VERY tempermental. So I would be doing lots of maintenance and I don't even know if it would turn out ok. Plus bangs take forever to grow out, so if I hate it I would have to keep it for a long time...
Anyway it would be nice to get some layers in there too. My hair is too long and blocky.


Another interesting idea would be to just chop it all off and start over. It would be interesting, and probably wouldn't take as long to style as my normal hair.

sigh

So I guess I should tell you how Science Olympiad went. I didn't do so well. I got 12th place in Oceanography and 7th place in Forensics. La Cueva and Albuquerque Acadamy kicked our butts.

It was especially a disappointment for Oceanography, since I spent the most time studying for that. I pretty much deemed it a complete waste of time at first. But I guess if I hadn't have participated I wouldn't know Sam and Paul and I would not have done so much crazy stuff with Vivienne and Melodie. And I never would have tasted that delicious smoothie at NMT. :) Oh and now when I watch LOST, I'll know exactly which kind of waves/tides/beach patterns I'm looking at.

Well I must admit that when they first announced the Oceanography scored, I was very thoroughly disappointed. But after a few hours' reflection, I remembered something one of the girls said at small group last Thursday: when you really look at life, the only thing that truly matters is God. Everything else- school, friends, sin, extracurricular activities, parents, significant others, bad test scores- hardly matters compared to Him. And even as Christians we do everything , in word or deed, to the glory of God. Oceanography doesn't really matter compared to God. He created Oceanography. He could pwn Science Olympiad!

Also: God wanted us to get 12th in Oceanography. He is sovereign; it was his plan. And you know, whatever His plan is, I'm ok with it. :)

I can find Nemo!

State Science Olympiad is already this Saturday.

My Oceanography partner, Melodie, came over at 8:30 this morning to practice. She left at 4:30pm. We did Oceanography the ENTIRE TIME. I'm all oceanography-d out.

I now can tell you where pretty much every deep ocean trench is, and also where all the major currents are, I can tell you almost anything about waves, I am supposed to know the salinity, pH, and elemental composition of seawater, and I know the features of the ocean floor and seismic activity underwater and what damage it can cause.

Tomorrow I'm going to make a poster that says "We Can Find Nemo!" and its going to have a picture of Australia on it with the East Australia Current on it, and then it'll say, "Follow The EAC" because now we know exactly where that is. And then I'm gonna put it on a stick and bring it to SO on saturday. :P

another "a" name

I just got back from my cousin Jennie's baby shower.
She's so pretty!

Also: I love going to baby showers. They are soooo fun! You get to hang out with your family and everyone has a good time discussing baby names and such, and you get to buy cute little baby clothes, and you get to play baby-shower games. I think my favorite one is the clothespin game: everybody gets a clothespin, and if you say the word "baby" in the course of the evening, the person you're talking to gets to keep your clothespin. Whoever has the most clothespins in the end wins- its so much fun.

Although I am quite tired now, because we went early and helped them set up and decorate, and then we stayed late and even drove some of the presents over to their house. I'm sore too cause I had to get out tables and chairs and then put them back. :P

I can't wait till I get to have a baby shower.
I want twins. They're so cool because they're similar to each other but always so different in personality. Once I read that if you want twins, you have to eat lotsa yams. But I really hate yams so it probably wont happen. :P
It would be really cool to have a boy twin and a girl twin though. The girls name would definitely be Audrey. Well, almost definitely.
I'm stuck on boys' names though. I wanted to name the kid Sodapop like in The Outsiders, but if they're twins they should be matching! Another "A" name.
But not Allan, Anthony, Aaron, Abraham, Albert, Alejandro, or Alvin.
Maybe like Alex or Andy.
I don't know.

hobos unite

Last night I gave my worries about Trig to God.
He's really helping me get through it. I feel pretty peaceful now, and I realize that even if I do fail this class, I will live.

If I don't pass and can't get a job when I get older, at least I could turn into a hobo and live under a bridge- maybe I-40. I will have lots of hobo friends. It'll be like living in an apartment only a little different. :P
When I start to get sick of tomato soup and ramen, my friend said she would buy me a whataburger and some slices of pizza. So I won't starve.
I'll go into "coin collecting". Ever find money on the sidewalk? Well I'll bet I could make a few bucks out of that, and then when my shirt falls apart I can go to Goodwill and get a nice "new" one for like $2.

And if people laugh at me for not being able to pass the class, then I'll forgive them and move on, but I wouldn't invite them over to my bridge. :)

how peter felt

I had this blog all planned out, and now I have no idea how to begin.

Well I was driving home from CNM today, looking at the gorgeous sunset that I just know God put there for me, to remind me of Him.
And to remind me to pray. I've made a decision to pray much more from now on.

Anyways, I was looking at the sunset and praying. And thinking about how I used to pray for God to test me, so that I could show Him that I would always be true and faithful.
And I was like, wow. God has been testing me lately, and I didn't even realize. I didn't even think of it. I hardly recognized it even when it bit me on the nose.
But I wasn't as faithful as I'd planned on being. I let everything, what God was testing me with, life just get in the way of being with Him and letting Him take control of the situation.
I think I do know a little of how Peter felt.


If Jesus Christ is true,
Then I am mostly lies-
If Jesus Christ is love,
Then I have failed to try-
If Jesus Christ is life,
Then please just let me die...

slipping

The title of my blog is "If I Keep My Eyes On Jesus, I Can Walk On Water".

It's from one of my favorite songs by Audio Adrenaline. Peter found that if he followed God in everything he did, then he could do virtually anything.

I must confess I haven't been the best Christian lately. Everyone slips, but thats no excuse.
And as I've been slipping, I'm finding it harder to survive. At life.

I need to communicate more with God. Because I'm drowning.
I fail at everything.

Plus my parents hate my friends. And my friends hate my parents, which doesn't help things much. But I don't blame them.
My dad is sort of neutral, but mother-dear is very opinionated and stubborn and a little old-fashioned. She believes in respect and respect alone, and first impressions stick with her. So upon meeting her, you must do little wrong or else...

Some of my very best friends are practically not even allowed to come to my house. I should think I would not be allowed to even be near them if I didn't go to church and Awana with them. If they want to even give me a ride home from somewhere, for example, my mom will say no. If my friends invite me to go to their house, I can only sometimes get my parents to consent. Basically my parents like for me to spend as little time with them as possible. Which sucks- you don't understand how much.

I have never wanted to get out so much. My friend and I have it all arranged: I'm going to save money (hopefully enough) to co-rent an apartment or something when I turn 18. Or whenever I get enough money. Which Im afraid might be never... but im trying. It's less than a year away that I can have my own rules.

Of course, things would probably be a lot better if I let God in more... well at least I would be able to bear the bad things more.

lock ur doors!

Nothin' much to report.
Nothing exciting is happening.

School is happening.
School is not very exciting.
Just stressful.

The other day I was at CNM, washing my hands in the bathroom. I had forgotten to lock the door, and this girl came in. We stared at each other for about 3 seconds.
Then I said, "Hi."
She just stared at me for like 5 seconds longer, then abruptly turned and walked away.
It wasn't awkward at all- just strange and unexpected. I thought it was weird that she never said a word to me, she just looked at me like she expected me to leave.
haha.
Next time, I will lock the door.

snow is good too

I know I've said that I hate snow.
But I guess that's not really true.

Last night I realized that I love love love to watch snow silently fall. No wind, no sound- those just ruin the effect of plain snow. And yet the snow is not plain itself- everything about it is so clean, so refreshing.
Icicles hanging from the rooftops, frost tracing up and down windowpanes- its all so naturally beautiful.
It's fun to go for a walk in it, especially at night under a purple sky. My family did that once, every now and then lobbing a snowball at someone when they weren't looking. :)

Yeah a little snow it good every now and then.
I like living in New Mexico- it snows just the right amount, and then melts pretty fast.
And its just cold enough in winter and just warm enough in summer.
I may not ever move.

finally almost over

Today was Science Olympiad Regional Competitions!

I actually wasn't in any events. Well, I signed up for two (Forensics and Oceanography), but they couldn't get anyone to judge these events, so I get to move right on up and compete at state!
I've been explaining that to people all day.
Everyone was calling me the lucky team mascot. I just went along with people and watched a bunch of events and just generally had a fun time. Although it was very boring for a couple hours in there...
The event lasted all day. We got there at 7am and left at 4pm. But it was over before I knew it. Our teams did pretty well- there were a few first places in there. Our middle school team, I am proud to say, got 1st place out of every other middle school in the event! (there were about 7-8). They got a huge trophy and everything.
Our high school team got 3rd place out of 7-8 high schools, and we got a little trophy. :P
All of our teams moved on to state! yahoo! :D
It was kind of annoying though because they screwed up the individual awards, and so we don't know what each person got for their event. They're going to mail out the info.

After the event, we all went to Fuddrucker's! And I am proud to say that my friend Paul Hamerick ate a 1lb burger. No applause please.

my super incredible thought for the day!

Last night at small group, we were talking about Daniel 12, and its kinda about the end times/tribulation. We discussed the anti-christ and what he'll be like, and also the events leading up to the tribulation. and I was like, huh. right.

Then this morning at government class, my teacher Mrs. Bracken (who is awesome by the way) was saying that it was seriously snowing in Iraq and that in the Bible it says to look for the tribulation times cause it'll be like the times of Noah. And in those times there was some serious weather alterations (rain he) and there are some now cause of the snow in Iraq... plus several other things line up as well. (cant talk about them right now cause i have to be leaving in like 5 minutes)

So then just now on the radio they were talking about Raw Talk, and how several things lately have been lining up w/ the bible prophecies for the end times. And i was like, wow! wouldnt it be amazingly crazy/wonderful if God came in OUR lifetimes!!!??

It would be equally amazing if He came before Monday, cause i have a trig test then.
j/k :P