all my balloons are popping

thats how i did josh's sweater.
its designed to look like a monster is eating his head. It didnt turn out quite as i hoped it would, but im ok with it.

Things are really taking off. My frauline, Danielle, is visiting friends in OK City and sort of "advertised" for me out there, and now I have an order from her friend out there for two pocket pals ($10 each). This will be my first "official" sale, so im really excited about it!
Also im taking Intro to Business at CNM next semester, so hopefully that'll help me out.

I have an idea for drawing on a pair of white shoes. So if anyone has white shoes and wants them to look like a foot monster, let me know.


I can't stop listening to this song:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_1mGzNHiyiA&feature=related
when christie dupree puts out a cd i will be one of the first to buy it.



Todays Theme Music:
this town, a town so obtuse- wesley jensen/ christie dupree
tire swing- kimya dawson
all my balloons- children 18:3

i love it when it rains all day

We usually go over to my grandmas house for thanksgiving, but today they came over here. My aunt carol came too, and also my cousins Bryan, Leon, Crystal, and Carolyn, and her little boy Dean.
Full house.
I love company, especially on holidays. Bryan and Leon are absolutely crazy and a lot of fun to hang out with. They told funny stories about how they used to put batteries in cameras and fix it up so that it shocks you when you take a picture, and also about the time that Leon pushed Bryan down our stairs like 7 years ago and he smashed right into our atrium.
(they told that one because Dean was going up the stairs when he wasnt supposed to and he ended up falling down and landing on his head in such a way that I thought for sure he would break his neck. yep it was a party, haha)

So you know whats crazy? Instead of getting tattoos, nowadays lots of people are getting brands. Like cattle brands. This is pretty much the dumbest thing I've heard of people doing (lately)- one of my friends was saying that he personally branded a friend of his. They just bent a coat hanger up in the shape he wanted, put it in the fire, and branded him.
Only they branded him on the stomach and his skin stretched, so what was supposed to be his high school football team name ended up looking more like the American flag. haha serves him right.


On saturday pretty much all my moms side of the family is coming over for our traditional "craft day": my moms present to all her neices and nephews. They all come over and make christmas crafts. It sounds lame, but its actually tons of fun having all the cousins together. Its pretty much the only time i see them anymore.
And we go outside and play football or hide and seek, or whatever the kids want to play. And eat nachos.



exactly a year ago i was in my cousin Yvette's quincenera with my cousin Richard. I was just thinking today about how much fun that was. I thought it was a big pain at first because we had to meet for weeks before to learn this traditional dance thing, but it was worth it.
I miss seeing everyone every week like that.






Todays Theme Music:
crayon angels - fleet foxes
everybody here is a cloud- cloud cult
this town, a town so obtuse- wesley jensen/christie dupree

i exaggerate a lot

Clinton is home :)


Now it feels like Thanksgiving.
i guess i didnt realize how much i missed him.

I have a cold. and i have to go to school. if i die, dont wear black to my funeral.
Actually, wear whatever you want. Only wear something you really like.



Todays Theme Music:
with a little help from my friends- the beatles
on distant shores- five iron frenzy

chainsaw brutality. tornado strength.

After two months of waiting in anticipation, I finally went to the underoath concert last night!
Jordan picked me up at about 6:10 and we listened to The Sound of Separation on the way there, to "prepare", lol.
We had to wait in line for like 45 minutes. and it was COLD, but totally worth it. These people came by and handed us free Saosin posters. We jumped up and down to keep warm, and joked with the random people in line behind us. good times :)

It was a good show too. I think i liked The Famine the least, but the devil wears prada totally made up for that! It was really intense in the crowd, though. We were so tightly packed that i couldn't raise my hands above my head, and at times i literally could not breathe because I was so smashed against the person in front of me. I felt like half my hair got ripped out too, haha. They played all the songs I wanted them to play. Everyone in the crowd was screaming out the lyrics as loud as they could; it was really cool.

We went up on the balcony for Saosin to get a good break, and then when underoath came on a lot of people went down into the crowd, so we got all the good seats on the balcony.
I loved how underoath opened with Breathing in a New Mentality.

And I really liked how all the bands mentioned that all their music went out to God, and also how Spencer gave his testimony.

That show was just amazing.
period.





Todays Theme Music:
youre ever so inviting- underoath
tree tops- eisley
nice for you- neon horse

i love eisley

obsession

1) Its 'Write love on your arms' day.
just in case you didnt notice.



2) the photo shoot got canceled. :( I guess josh was gonna borrow some lights from this one guy, but the guy lent the lights to someone else who didnt return them on time. so when josh went to get the lights, they werent there, and who knows when they'll be returned, so the shoot has been temporarily postponed. So now im doing nothing this friday, when originally i was gonna take tickets at Creation Fest and then canceled that b/c i was gonna do the shoot.
lame!


3) I really really need to buy underoath tickets. soon.


4) Finally finished Lukes pocket person, after like a month or so. I got kinda burnt out on it about 2 weeks into making it, so i stopped working on it after i ran out of thread. but yeah, its done now. I guess im making Katelyns next, but i dont know when i can get myself to start on it. I get kinda sad in a strange way after finishing a pocket pal. Its like another little piece of me is popping out into existence, however cheesy that may sound.
I really cant wait till this becomes all i do.
its a crazy obsession of mine.




Todays Theme Music:
second skin- the gits

very jackson pollock-y

Thats the backround for the photo shoot on Friday!
I'm so excited.




Todays Theme Music:
they all surrounded me- eisley
good morning fire eater- copeland
spartan- five iron frenzy

i think not...

Before class today, this one guy was talking about how after he graduates hes gonna join the army and get shipped off to Iraq. He said, "I cannot wait"; he was actually excited about it, because apparently when he was a little kid he would spend his allowance on black powder and blow stuff up. I guess he thinks Iraq will be the same.
I dont know about you, but ive read a lot of war novels, and even with that small understanding of what war is like, I can tell that it is NOT a desirable situation to be in. I've heard war described as hell. Who really enjoys war, anyway? Im sure i wouldnt...
War is not cool, war is not fun, war is not safe, war is not happy.
and those are not reasons for wanting to go to Iraq.

Sometimes war is necessary, though.
I would respect the guy a lot more if he had said that he was excited to go to Iraq to help our country and the people over there instead of saying that he was excited to blow stuff up.
People die in wars.

That guy is a fool.

the same old thing

Back from Los Cruces.
We ended up staying till Sunday, but it was ok. I didn't mind.

Saturday was definitely the best day I've had in a long time. We woke up and went to the Farmers Market, which was a lot different from Portlands', but still pretty cool. Then around 11:30 mom and dad dropped me off at the campus to have lunch with clinton. It was kinda funny, because they all stay up really late and then sleep really late, so we had to go around and wake up all Clint's friends, which is apparently what he does every day. It was actually kind of amusing, becasue at our last stop this kid named Ian didn't want to get out of bed, so they pretty much all jumped on him and wrestled him to the floor and dressed him. And then they all apologized like I wasn't used to that kind of thing, lol.

I like the fact that they always eat together. Clinton pretty much has two families, one here and his friends at school. They're pretty close; they tolerate each other pretty well and never seriously bring anyone down.
They like to play pool while they eat. Thats their favorite thing to do, and they're all pretty good at it. Ian even went out and bought his own pool stick.
So after Clinton and i smothered them at pool (haha) we went and played singstar in one of the guy's room, and i ended up hanging out for an overall 5/6 hours! (which is why that day was so amazing) After which we went and ate dinner with mom and dad since it was dad's birthday.

I approve of Clintons friends. They're not christians, which is concerning for clinton, but they're pretty cool anyway. I bet God put Clinton there so that he could witness to them.
The only one of his friends that I don't really like is his roommate, Justin. When we first met him (when his mom was around, that is) there was no swearing, no dirty jokes, etc. He claimed he was a Christian and everything, too. But now, two months into college, he swears every other sentance and talks crap. Clinton says he rents a lot of really bad movies.
If this guy was really a Christian like he said he was at the start of the school year, he would love God. And if he loved God, he wouldn't do all this stuff that God hates. Thats a pet peeve of mine.

But i was glad we went. Good times :)




Todays Theme Music:
escaping song - eisley
such great heights - the postal service

safe no matter what

Ugh.
I had another run-in with Awkward Guy today.

I was walking down the little path at CNM to get to the cafeteria, and i was trying to hurry cause the wind was so cold it took my breath away. But as i was approaching the parking lot, I saw Awkward Guy, and i REALLY hoped that he didn't see me, so quickly turned to walk away. I've done this successfully 2-3 times before and escaped without him seeing me (i think), but not so today! He waved and stumbled over, and so we made arrangements for another study session after his class.

And then, just as i thought a study session with Awkward Guy could not get one bit more awkward, it DID. He confronted me on turning away from him as if to run away. And he also asked me if i even liked studying with him.
And of course i was an idiot and replied, "of COURSE i like studying with you! whatever could make you THINK that i was going to run away when i saw you??"

I just cant stand to hurt people. Even Awkward Guy. He's pretty nice; he doesn't deserve it- its just that if he wasn't so awkward i totally wouldn't mind study sessions or anything.
sigh.

Anyway, the BEST part of my day was right after Awkward Guy (shudder) went to his class before our study group thing-
I finally got to the cafeteria and this other kid from our chemistry class was there and asked if i could help him with his math homework. He thought i was a tutor at Main campus cause he saw me writing on a board in a study room there, but he quickly found that i am just as clueless at math as he is cause i couldn't help him with his algebra even though I'm in pre-calc.
But we started talking, and I actually got to witness to him! It was really amazing- ive been praying for an opportunity like this for a long time. It was the best part of my day :)


Also-
im really glad I went to first wednesday today. That guy that did the little communion speech said JUST the thing that I needed to hear- i was almost crying during worship cause I've been feeling so broken lately, so it was amazing to hear (once again) how Jesus gave himself so that I can be whole.
i love that.



Todays Theme Music:
fractions- emery
the ponytail parades (acoustic)- emery
on the safest ledge- copeland

a sight to behold

Got my senior pictures today :)
i really like them. my parents don't, but that was to be expected i guess.
it was nice having josh take them, cause he made it fun. It would have been pretty awkward if someone else had taken them... (shudder). I'm not good at talking to people I dont know :P



im thinking this would be the one to put
in my graduation cards.

its one of my favorites :)





Also, this weekend we're going to visit Clinton! yay :D
im more excited about this trip. I told clinton about how I didn't really enjoy the last visit because it seemed like I didn't get to hang out with him much, so this time I'm going to eat lunch with clinton and his friends instead of with mom and dad.
Im happy about that.
And we're only going to be down there for Friday and Saturday morning, so maybe I'll get to go to church sat. night, which makes my week even better :)

Oh- clinton also said that he would help me sell some pocket pals, so we're gonna try that out this weekend!


Those are the ones I'm gonna sell. I think Clinton's putting them on Ebay, but im not quite sure. But anyways, im excited about that cause now i'll have funds for underoath and christmas :D



Todays Theme Music:
nice for you- neon horse
I-W-I-N- starflyer 59
over the mountains we go- eisley

(im REALLY excited about eisley's new album coming out (hopefully) soon)

fully alive

I never thought I'd be the kind of person that talks about God all the time and can't stop, but that's what I've become.
Now I can see that it's definitely not a bad thing, but sometimes I have to tone it down a bit so that non-christians aren't turned off to God. I would hate for me to be the cause of someone turning away from Him.

God is pretty much my life. Without Him, I know I wouldn't be the person I am- i would be much worse and far more desparate. Without God, i may as well not even be alive.
Without God, i am basically dead.

I suppose thats why I love my church friends so much. They love God like I do.
Last week someone asked me what ive been up to aside from church stuff and school.
I haven't been up to anything except church and school, really. School you can't escape from, and church stuff is what helps me survive school. So thats pretty much my life. Is that a bad thing?
I think not. I like my life the way it is :)



Todays Theme Music:
i feel good - eisley
fault line, a fault of mine- underoath
change is hard - she&him