this isnt the end

eh.........
life.




Music:

lady of the wood-eisley

something is wrong with me

I dont know how to feel.
Today was uneventful in a way, but at the same time things happened that make me want to cry and things happened that make me want to smile.

So im happy... and sad... all at once. And its weird.


Today was amazing because-
i got to be by myself this morning.
i have my drivers licence.
i got to hang out with marissa and robert.
i was creative.
i got out of the house.


Today was awful because-
i was ignored.
i found out my grandpa has cancer.
i had to be by myself this morning.
i procrastinated, so now i still have to do a bunch of homework.


valentines day is tomorrow. but i dont care.
not too much, anyway.

God has a plan for me, and that should be good enough.
just pray that it will be, i guess.




Todays Theme Music:
how i waited- manchester orchestra
jesus in the southern sky- kellin quinn

soon, i'll pretty much be the Hulk

I got Facebook stalked.
Today in my finance class one of the girls, Julia, brought a friend, and when her friend came in she said, "Oh my goodness! are you amanda galloway?"
i'd never seen her in my life, so i felt kinda awkward.

But apparently, this girl facebook stalked me. So i told her about the pocket people cult group... always trying to spread the word ;)

I have my English class in about an hour, so in the meantime im eating sour skittles and hanging out with my little cousin Jessica. (we picked her up from school today cause its a half day)

and im super sore, because last night at awana we played crab soccer. fun times.
im on my way to buff-ness, man



Today's Theme Music:
reinventing your exit- underoath
knights of the round- a skylit drive
her advice cost us a life- emarosa

a stern shake of the head

I cant remember a time I've been this glad for the weekend to be over.

Friday sucked, Saturday was fine, Sunday sucked, Monday was not much better.

basically im just giving myself a very stern shake of the head, telling myself i can do better.

Saturday night my aunt came home drunk (she had stayed at my grandparents party till like midnight). Not overly drunk, but visibly at least. I had already claimed my bed back, since she hadn't come home, so she had to sleep with 4-year-old Marisol b/c her mom, my cousin Jennefer, was spending the night at our cousin Estevan's house.
But the next night Steve (my aunts boyfriend) had left and they made me sleep in his bed without washing the sheets... i was just a little disgusted, haha.
Also i had left my sweater in Los Lunas. I hope it doesnt snow today :-/
hopefully ill get that back this weekend.

Then at English on Monday, i realized that i had forgotten to do the assigned homework, something thats never happened to me before (not that i can remember). I guess i just forgot because of the stress of having the family over and being gone all saturday and babysitting Marisol.
And i had a physics test...
ugh

Anyway.
im glad thats over. now im just trying to finish everything up so that i dont forget anything else, listening to some House of Heroes, drinking Simply Lemonade. (have you ever had it? its the best)
i hope it doesn't snow :P



Todays Theme Music-
metaphor in paentheses- house of heroes
paper wings- rise against

wires and the concept of breathing

i sure know how to waste time.

physics test tomorrow, and im definitely not ready. who wants to read about spring constants anyway?

its a nice cloudy day and i think thats alright since im nice and cozy inside. just watched The Sword in the Stone, old-school Disney version, and ate some ice cream with snickers in it. Can life be any better? (maybe with no homework...)
:)

Some of my extended family from Nevada is staying at my house... (invading my house).
Though my aunts boyfriend took a plane back to nevada today, so i get my own room back tonight (hopefully). just as well; i didnt like him much.
yesterday the whole family (cept clinton, sniff sniff) went to Los Lunas where another of my aunts live to have a giant party for my grandparents since it was their 52nd anniversary.
Look how happy they were that we threw them a party! haha

Anyway, that was pretty amazing since i got to see a whole bunch of my family, specially my cousins Richard and Bryan who have me laughing at every turn.

the only thing was that i was kinda sad that i wouldnt get to go to church, b/c church makes me super happy. But since the party ended up starting at 1pm, I ended up going to church just in time to see our version of the Lifehouse Everything skit.


it was really amazing. i almost cried.
Grant was jesus. I have no idea why i get such a big kick out of that, but i do.

then we went to Dions afterward, as usual, and i had an especially amazing time.
the end





Today's Theme Music:
wires and the concept of breathing- a skylit drive
whats a clock without the batteries?- emarosa

when i was a young girl, trying to find a way above the tree tops...

Today we went to Dions, and there were two balloons on the ceiling so we got them down and sucked the helium out of them and laughed our heads off at our voices.
So then we decided to go to Albertson's and buy more balloons. The guy operating the machine must've thought we were crazy.
We got every color of the rainbow and went back to Dions and stood outside saying lines from Teen Girl Squad with helium voices.

(and this morning i talked to Clinton on Skype, which is this really amazing thing you can download and you can see and hear the person you're talking to and they can see and hear you. so i talked to clinton and justin, his roommate, and also i met their friends Kelsey and Austin. Only Austin had been drunk the night before so that was kind of awkward and not cool. Anyway, skype is amazing and i love it)



Todays Theme Music:
tree tops- eisley
ulrich firelord- iwrestledabearonce
just another marionette- emarosa

love is all you need

wrote this bio-poem for my english class-

Amanda
Relative of Bernadette and David, Sister of Clinton
Lover of music, sugar, and her Jesus
Who feels loneliness, her sense of purpose, and sometimes nothing at all
Who needs a loving God, books, friends
Who fears bad grades, differences, and being alone
Galloway




i just got back from the hospital. my grandpa is dying.
got my ears pierced again, but the lady screwed up and im getting my right ear done again next week.
i miss my brother like nothing you can imagine. his shower collapsed (again) because of mold, and i just know thats whats making him so sick, which makes me angry but what i do about it?
i also miss my evie.
listening to some manchester orchestra and the beatles, just doing some random homework and eating candy.
i lost my hat, the one with the ears. i cant find it anywhere. Ian got me a hat for my birthday but he cant give it to me until spring break.
thinking about all the homeless out there... i complain a lot but i have it good.
i think im ready for summer already.
haven't been making much of anything lately, just haven't felt like it and that makes me sad.



Todays Theme Music:
dont let them see you cry- manchester orchestra
all you need is love- the beatles
what sarah said- death cab for cutie