hobos unite

Last night I gave my worries about Trig to God.
He's really helping me get through it. I feel pretty peaceful now, and I realize that even if I do fail this class, I will live.

If I don't pass and can't get a job when I get older, at least I could turn into a hobo and live under a bridge- maybe I-40. I will have lots of hobo friends. It'll be like living in an apartment only a little different. :P
When I start to get sick of tomato soup and ramen, my friend said she would buy me a whataburger and some slices of pizza. So I won't starve.
I'll go into "coin collecting". Ever find money on the sidewalk? Well I'll bet I could make a few bucks out of that, and then when my shirt falls apart I can go to Goodwill and get a nice "new" one for like $2.

And if people laugh at me for not being able to pass the class, then I'll forgive them and move on, but I wouldn't invite them over to my bridge. :)

how peter felt

I had this blog all planned out, and now I have no idea how to begin.

Well I was driving home from CNM today, looking at the gorgeous sunset that I just know God put there for me, to remind me of Him.
And to remind me to pray. I've made a decision to pray much more from now on.

Anyways, I was looking at the sunset and praying. And thinking about how I used to pray for God to test me, so that I could show Him that I would always be true and faithful.
And I was like, wow. God has been testing me lately, and I didn't even realize. I didn't even think of it. I hardly recognized it even when it bit me on the nose.
But I wasn't as faithful as I'd planned on being. I let everything, what God was testing me with, life just get in the way of being with Him and letting Him take control of the situation.
I think I do know a little of how Peter felt.


If Jesus Christ is true,
Then I am mostly lies-
If Jesus Christ is love,
Then I have failed to try-
If Jesus Christ is life,
Then please just let me die...

slipping

The title of my blog is "If I Keep My Eyes On Jesus, I Can Walk On Water".

It's from one of my favorite songs by Audio Adrenaline. Peter found that if he followed God in everything he did, then he could do virtually anything.

I must confess I haven't been the best Christian lately. Everyone slips, but thats no excuse.
And as I've been slipping, I'm finding it harder to survive. At life.

I need to communicate more with God. Because I'm drowning.
I fail at everything.

Plus my parents hate my friends. And my friends hate my parents, which doesn't help things much. But I don't blame them.
My dad is sort of neutral, but mother-dear is very opinionated and stubborn and a little old-fashioned. She believes in respect and respect alone, and first impressions stick with her. So upon meeting her, you must do little wrong or else...

Some of my very best friends are practically not even allowed to come to my house. I should think I would not be allowed to even be near them if I didn't go to church and Awana with them. If they want to even give me a ride home from somewhere, for example, my mom will say no. If my friends invite me to go to their house, I can only sometimes get my parents to consent. Basically my parents like for me to spend as little time with them as possible. Which sucks- you don't understand how much.

I have never wanted to get out so much. My friend and I have it all arranged: I'm going to save money (hopefully enough) to co-rent an apartment or something when I turn 18. Or whenever I get enough money. Which Im afraid might be never... but im trying. It's less than a year away that I can have my own rules.

Of course, things would probably be a lot better if I let God in more... well at least I would be able to bear the bad things more.

lock ur doors!

Nothin' much to report.
Nothing exciting is happening.

School is happening.
School is not very exciting.
Just stressful.

The other day I was at CNM, washing my hands in the bathroom. I had forgotten to lock the door, and this girl came in. We stared at each other for about 3 seconds.
Then I said, "Hi."
She just stared at me for like 5 seconds longer, then abruptly turned and walked away.
It wasn't awkward at all- just strange and unexpected. I thought it was weird that she never said a word to me, she just looked at me like she expected me to leave.
haha.
Next time, I will lock the door.

snow is good too

I know I've said that I hate snow.
But I guess that's not really true.

Last night I realized that I love love love to watch snow silently fall. No wind, no sound- those just ruin the effect of plain snow. And yet the snow is not plain itself- everything about it is so clean, so refreshing.
Icicles hanging from the rooftops, frost tracing up and down windowpanes- its all so naturally beautiful.
It's fun to go for a walk in it, especially at night under a purple sky. My family did that once, every now and then lobbing a snowball at someone when they weren't looking. :)

Yeah a little snow it good every now and then.
I like living in New Mexico- it snows just the right amount, and then melts pretty fast.
And its just cold enough in winter and just warm enough in summer.
I may not ever move.

finally almost over

Today was Science Olympiad Regional Competitions!

I actually wasn't in any events. Well, I signed up for two (Forensics and Oceanography), but they couldn't get anyone to judge these events, so I get to move right on up and compete at state!
I've been explaining that to people all day.
Everyone was calling me the lucky team mascot. I just went along with people and watched a bunch of events and just generally had a fun time. Although it was very boring for a couple hours in there...
The event lasted all day. We got there at 7am and left at 4pm. But it was over before I knew it. Our teams did pretty well- there were a few first places in there. Our middle school team, I am proud to say, got 1st place out of every other middle school in the event! (there were about 7-8). They got a huge trophy and everything.
Our high school team got 3rd place out of 7-8 high schools, and we got a little trophy. :P
All of our teams moved on to state! yahoo! :D
It was kind of annoying though because they screwed up the individual awards, and so we don't know what each person got for their event. They're going to mail out the info.

After the event, we all went to Fuddrucker's! And I am proud to say that my friend Paul Hamerick ate a 1lb burger. No applause please.

my super incredible thought for the day!

Last night at small group, we were talking about Daniel 12, and its kinda about the end times/tribulation. We discussed the anti-christ and what he'll be like, and also the events leading up to the tribulation. and I was like, huh. right.

Then this morning at government class, my teacher Mrs. Bracken (who is awesome by the way) was saying that it was seriously snowing in Iraq and that in the Bible it says to look for the tribulation times cause it'll be like the times of Noah. And in those times there was some serious weather alterations (rain he) and there are some now cause of the snow in Iraq... plus several other things line up as well. (cant talk about them right now cause i have to be leaving in like 5 minutes)

So then just now on the radio they were talking about Raw Talk, and how several things lately have been lining up w/ the bible prophecies for the end times. And i was like, wow! wouldnt it be amazingly crazy/wonderful if God came in OUR lifetimes!!!??

It would be equally amazing if He came before Monday, cause i have a trig test then.
j/k :P