i'll follow the sun

On days like this, I like to turn on my little red glass lamp that I got at IKEA, turn out all the other lights, and look at it. It reminds me of Oregon. While I was there, every day was cloudy like this, and i sat in my room curled in a ball on my bed, turned on this lamp and looked at the red light it gave out and the bird silhouette it cast on the wall.

Josh's mom bought his grandma a puppy. did i tell you this?

shes a pomeranian/chihuahua mix, but its cuter than either breed. her name is Jingle, but everyone calls her puppy because we all knew her before she was named. She likes to bounce straight up in the air and climb over peoples legs when they are sitting on the floor.

I am annoyed at my anthropology professor because he has not posted the grades for the last exam. I took it about two weeks ago!

i just wanna know if i pwned it, already. sheesh.

I hit my elbow on the cash register at work last week. It was quite painful. My arm was sore for three days, and now sometimes i will be sewing or writing or something and my fingers will randomly pop really painfully.

i got some shoes and sewed buttons on them. and now theyre my favorite.

i like regina spektor's music, but her face kinda scares me.

Clintons home on spring break.

i wish unm was still on break, because right now i should really be writing my 2000 word literary analysis of jhumpa lahiri's The Namesake (including 3 or more articles that relate to the subject!). and i dont wanna write it.

so you know that friend that stayed with me while my parents were in oregon? well, her family is going out of town for 11 days in June, and they want me to watch their house for them. I get to stay there and take care of their 4 dogs and 1 chinchilla! im excited about the chinchilla, because they are cute and furry.

plus they have a trampoline and several movies, so theres stuff to do there. And they said they would buy me food, not to mention pay me $500 for staying there! its pretty much too good to be true.

but im hoping it still is :)

another thing to look forward to is April 4th. Know what April 4th is?

if you answered "easter", you would be correct.

if you answered "josh and amanda's 1 year anniversary," you would also be correct.

I am going to make him a stained glass crayon heart card, which im excited about because 1) i love crayons, 2) i love hearts, 3) theyre so much fun to make.

seriously.

its gunna be awesome.

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I ride my bike, I roller skate, don't drive no car 

Don't go too fast, but I go pretty far

 For somebody who don't drive, I been all around the world 

Some people say I've done all right for a girl

Let me be a lighthouse, shining on the sea

I got a myspace yesterday morning.

then 30 minutes later, I realized that I would probably never get on it.

turns out, myspace is very uninteresting.

I wore flip-flops yesterday. In the summer, i either live in flip-flops or go barefoot. Of course, that puts my feet at risk- like yesterday when i sliced my foot on the metal corner of the change-holder thing in josh's truck.

and when we decide to do a photoshoot for the clothing company at the base of the mountains where there are lots of stickers and cactus.

its totally worth it though.

this spring break im having a hard time doing all the things i said i wanted to.

-i have not made any pocket pals

-i have not gotten a car

-i have not cleaned my room

-i have not made a pair of shorts

-i have not gone on a bike ride

-i have not read any books

sad right? Im always tired these days because I never do anything. I can't bring myself to, sometimes.

Im not working with Grant tonight, which makes me sad. i love working with grant. the time just flies by.

i need to go do something now, because i am bored. and that can always be fixed.

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I met up with the king
He confessed his body was burning
I met up with the king
His body had begun to rot
And he said

"don't think less of me
I'm still the same man I used to be"

i was walking with a ghost- i said, "please, please don't insist."

i pwned my anthropology tests noob today.

i think.

im a really terrible test taker. this is my method-

first, i procrastinate. I start studying the day before, or if im really ambitious, two days before. (I think that for this test, i started studying 3 days before.) (but the reason for that is not that i was really really ambitious, but that I got a 71 on the first test and knew i had to step it up a little.)

To make up for the procrastination, I stay up till 3-4 in the morning studying, and then wake up early and study more. Then I take the test. The first questions are always easy; if they're not i skip them and come back to them when im in the test-taking mind zone, which is a place i need to take myself if i want to get a good grade.

about halfway through the test, I start second guessing myself. I might go back and switch the answers to some questions ( i know, i know... totally against the advice to 'go with your first instinct' from all those SAT practice books). When I finish the test, I think i did amazingly well. If i know i didnt, i dont care because its over. That lasts about half an hour, and then i start to worry I failed. Then i forget about it until I get the results. If i did well, i celebrate. if i did badly, i thank God that the teacher drops the lowest grade, because i know i can step it up for the next exam. (ex.: remember how i pwned my anthro tests noob today?)

thats how my brain works when it comes to test taking.

Right now, Im in that last stage of forgetfulness for 2 of my exams, and the stage of procrastination for art history tomorrow. In fact, ive studied maybe an hour for it. maybe. but theres always after i finish this blog. And tomorrow morning. and the bus ride to school.

cant wait till its over.

wish me luck! :)

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No matter which way you go
No matter which way you stay
You're out of my mind, out of my mind
I was walking with a ghost
I said please, please don't insist

God if your love can peirce me with an arrow, through my stubborn heart and marrow

i dont know if this is an off- day or what.
maybe i just didn't get enough sleep last night.
its probably just that im blowing out my mind and stressing about the 3 exams i have this week and work and not having finished my taxes yet.
in fact, i am not absolutely certain of the location of my tax documents. ahem. yeah.

I've been reading lots of my anthropology textbook to prepare for the exam thursday. its actually pretty interesting. A chapter i read today was about the linguistics department of anthropology, and it was talking about people that teach gorillas sign language. So i decided thats what i want to do when i grow up. i will raise a gorilla from infancy and teach it over 700 ASL signs.

My classes each let out about 45 minutes early today, so i got done around 11:30. On my way to the bus, i was walking by the Art building wishing that I was good enough to get in, or that they would just let me mess around with all the supplies inside. I stopped and looked up at the building, not really noticing anything particularly artsy or stunning about it architecturally. so i climbed up the steps to go in, even though its not my department. I just wanted a look, so i peeked in windows at all the pottery wheels and paintings taped up to walls, sculptures on display in window boxes and greenware vases and piggy banks and plates and figurines on trays ready to go into the kiln. I miss ceramics. I think i will pick it up again during the summer, if i have enough money.

Im going to get a new job. Im going to a job fair on the 23rd and maybe someone will be sympathetic of my 10 month employment at subway and hire me out of pity.

also i am going to get a car soon. relatively soon.
hopefully soon?

Josh and i are going to start making video blogs after i get a car. and after we get a camera, of course. I cant wait. its going to be kind of like shaytards. http://www.youtube.com/user/SHAYTARDS
the shaytards have made a video every day for 365 days and theyre not stopping.

only tonight left, then tomorrow and the next day and the next morning till spring break.
yay.


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The world is alive now, in and outside our home
You run through the forest, settle before the sun
Darling, I can barely remember you beside me
You should come back home, back on your own now

creature fear

I dont know about you, but i was really looking forward to seeing this movie. So i was really excited when i came home from school a couple days ago and my mom gave me two premier tickets. She had gone to get the book for my brother for easter (i guess because theres a bunny involved), and the lady just gave her the tickets. for free.
And my parents don't really like the story of alice in wonderland, or johnny depp, or anything tim burton-esq, so they gave the tickets to me.
It was really very good. I enjoyed it a lot. Go see it.
i love disney.

Things are really good. My parents are so much more relaxed, and so am I. Today my mom and I are going shopping. We are going to spend time together, and hopefully not fight or anything. But its good, because we are trying. And so far, nothing bad has happened.
I come home after 11pm most nights, and they've not said anything about it. Sometimes they are in bed sleeping when i get home, which i like a lot for some reason- i guess cause they trust that I will come home, and will not have been doing anything illegal or wrong, and know i will be quiet and not wake them up when i get back. And they don't worry as much that something will happen to me, which i now understand is really hard.
I love them for trying.

Also I am only working 3 day weeks now, which is a lot better than the 5 day weeks i was doing. It was way too hard. it was hard to get school done, or cleaning, or anything. The only thing I will miss about it is the money, haha.
but hey, i have enough for a car now. my dad and i are looking on craigs list, because thats where my brother got his car. It was a good deal, and a very good car. hopefully soon it will be my turn.

ive been doing 100 sit-ups in the morning and sometimes at night so i can lose my extra manda. and soon i will go on bike rides every day, and im getting ready to make shorts out of my old winter pants. Cant wait to wear tank tops every day, and wear out another pair of flip flops. Its getting warmer every day, and flowers are blooming and its getting darker later.
and tomorrow josh and i will have been together for 11 months. yay!
<3 (have you ever listened to bon iver? im addicted to him and the beatles) -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I’ve got this habit I abhor
when we go out, I’m always watching the door
as if there’s someone I’m going to see
who could out do the things that you do to me.

since I was made, ive been leaving
I'd say ive changed, but i wouldnt believe it
its cause my legs, they don't forget
when they find a way out, theyll always take it.