fully alive

I never thought I'd be the kind of person that talks about God all the time and can't stop, but that's what I've become.
Now I can see that it's definitely not a bad thing, but sometimes I have to tone it down a bit so that non-christians aren't turned off to God. I would hate for me to be the cause of someone turning away from Him.

God is pretty much my life. Without Him, I know I wouldn't be the person I am- i would be much worse and far more desparate. Without God, i may as well not even be alive.
Without God, i am basically dead.

I suppose thats why I love my church friends so much. They love God like I do.
Last week someone asked me what ive been up to aside from church stuff and school.
I haven't been up to anything except church and school, really. School you can't escape from, and church stuff is what helps me survive school. So thats pretty much my life. Is that a bad thing?
I think not. I like my life the way it is :)



Todays Theme Music:
i feel good - eisley
fault line, a fault of mine- underoath
change is hard - she&him

staring into space

I've been thinking about portland a lot lately. I dont know why.
I used to pray for the people we met there all the time after we got back, but i haven't lately. I really don't want to fall from that habit, so I've made it a point to visit the Oregon blog (you can see it if you scroll down the page, right above my picture, if you want to read more about it and pray too) once or twice a month so that ill remember.
i find it easier to remember to pray when I can see all their faces...

Portland was definitely the high point of my year, and a turning point in my life. God has given me such a passion to help the homeless- all the homeless, everywhere. Not just Portland.
Though I am such a hypocrite. I kick myself every time I see a bum on the side of the road and i realize i forgot to put food, or, at the very least, water in the car so I could give it away.
You get such kicks from helping them out. Seriously.
Try it.

But yeah anyway, I really miss portland. I cant wait to go back... i'm most definitely going next year, even if its the only thing i do the whole summer.


oh yeah (this is kinda random) but i think my parents ordered my eisley shoes today! I asked for them for christmas, and my "christmas wish list" is sitting right here by the computer. heh heh heh. http://www.veganessentials.com/catalog/bronson-eisley-studio-project-slip-on-by-macbeth.htm
check them out. arent they great? :D



Todays Theme Music:
when you thought you'd never stand out- copeland
heads or tails, real or not- emarosa

stacy dupree is my friend on facebook. i know you're jealous.

I have a Chemistry test on Wednesday.
And im actually studying for it. You should be proud of me.

yesterday we (TEEN GIRL SQUAD) got our costumes for the small group party! We went to savers :P I got what danielle would call a chola outfit, lol. Its overalls without the overall.

Also on thursday I'm taking my senior pictures. I don't know how I feel about that- i hate getting dressed up, and I pretty much suck at getting pictures taken of me. It makes me feel awkward unless im doing something crazy.
But josh is taking them so i'm sure one or two will come out ok.
http://www.myspace.com/jmorsephotography
check it out!


Todays Theme Music:
great dj- the ting tings
you love to sing- copeland

album art

im excited :)

I'm going to be a hair model.
like a hand model, but with hair. Only im not going to wrap all my hair up so that its not exposed to light or the air or chemicals or nasty things. (hand models are known to get kinda crazy about not touching things)

Anyways,
one of my friends is a photographer and had this idea to tie my hair up with a blonde girls hair, and then (somehow, im a little fuzzy on the details) put that in front of a canvas painted with little creatures on it (i think). And StandBy Records is going to buy it for $1000 to use as album art for a random band (i actually dont think they've picked the band yet). So i'm gonna get $100 out of this, plus my hair will be on a cd's album art.
yay!

Also, Awkward Guy burned all the skin off the fingers of his left hand in lab, cause he accidentally leaned on a hot plate. And he had gloves on, so the plastic molded to his fingers and he had to rip it off.
gross!

im taking a math test tomorrow.
wish me luck.



Todays Theme Music:
im safer in an airplane- copeland
debate exposes doubt- dcfc

school friends? what school friends?

Have I told you about Awkward Guy?
I am literally hiding from him right now.

Josh Morse was pretty happy when i told him i know someone more awkward than him, though Awkward Guys awkwardness is a different sort of awkwardness than Josh's. Josh has an awkwardness that makes him likable because its funny. Awkward Guy has a kind of crazy awkward aura, and whenever I'm around him, I feel awkward too. Its the whole stuttering/loss for words/saying the wrong thing/shifty eyed/not knowing what to do with your arms and legs/i just wanna be your friend awkwardness. Its a different kind of awkwardness.
So i really dont like hanging around Awkward Guy, because i hate feeling awkward and i dislike being around people with this type of awkwardness.

The thing is, Awkward Guy always wants to hang out with me. I'm not the very hang-out-able type of person, unless you really know me, so i really have no clear idea why. I think its because Awkward Guy used to know my brother way back when.
Anyway, without fail, every monday after chemistry he will walk up to where im sitting and ask if i want to study after his class (at 1:30). And i am obliged to say "yes", because
1) if you say "no" to Awkward Guy, he will be depressed
2) i actually need the help

Only last week i was studying with a friend in the cafeteria and i forgot i told Awkward Guy that i would be in the library, and he was apparently searching for me everywhere until he found me. (which is kinda creepy). But anyways, today after i said i confirmed that i would study with him, Awkward Guy stuttered out, "You'll be there this time, right?", and i felt bad that i was so mean to him.
So here i sit in a corner- the very back of the library. There is a chance, however slight, that maybe Awkward Guy doesn't wanna study today :P





Todays Theme Music-
on wings of integrity- mychildren mybride

problem solving

i wish life would be like this:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fEf4psd9HTw&feature=related

haha. hahaha.





Todays theme music:
reinventing your exit- underoath

ugh

... i hate school