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I've been reading a lot lately. Stephen King, mostly.
I was in the middle of Hearts in Atlantis, but i took a break so that i could finish reading Through Painted Deserts. Actually, i just finished it 10 minutes ago.
i loved it. im sad its over.
Its about a trip that Don and his friend Paul took. Paul had a VW van, and they basically decided to live and drive in it from Texas to Oregon. They each took only what they could live on- beans and rice, two changes of clothes, $400, and other stuff, packed up and left.

Something i thought was cool was that at the start, Don and Paul had a conversation about what they wanted most, houses or boats or girls. A few weeks into the trip they had hiked to the bottom of the grand canyon. They were both so tired and strained and rugged from living on beans and rice and sleeping in the cold and hiking difficult switchbacks, and they had another conversation about what they wanted most. It was cereal. Raisin Bran. They were both so completely happy in the canyon, seeing God in everything they experienced, that the only thing more they could think of wanting would be a bowl of Raisin Bran.

After they got to oregon, paul and don got jobs and lived in the woods. Don says that if he ever found himself starting to get too much into life and possesions and trying to keep up with the jones, he would sell everything and go back to live in the woods. It made him appreciate everything, life and the little things in it. I feel that way sometimes; that i could just make lists and lists of little things about life that i love, and i feel good and appreciate life and God for showing me himself.
(i want to go live in the woods for awhile)

ive been to the grand canyon once, but i dont really remember it. after reading Through Painted Deserts, i want to go again and hike to the bottom of it. I dont know why; to see whats down there and thank God for that marvellous peice of land i guess. (also because its dangerous. i dont know why that appeals to me, but it does, haha.)

When Rachel lent me that book, she told me it would make me want to pack up and drive somewhere. She was right. I've felt like i could do that for a long time now.
Actually, last friday i kinda did that, but i was only gone for a day. Thursday night i was talking to josh, and we both felt kind of discouraged i guess. I couldnt really tell you how i felt. (ive been finiding lately just how limited words are) All i could think was that i wanted to go somewhere. I was thinking Las Cruces, but i didnt think josh would want to go that far, so i suggested Santa Fe, but josh was thinking like me and suggested White Sands instead. So at 10:30 we decided to go to white sands, and we left at 9:30 the next morning. (my parents werent too happy about this. but i loved it).
it was amazing. i'd forgotten how beautiful God created it. If i were any good at painting, i would try to paint it, but i dont think i could ever mix the colors right or re-create the hazy yet clear look of the mountains in the distace, making the air look hot and cool at the same time.
i love God.


The other day i went to Buffalo Exchange for the first time with laura. I love the idea of stores like that, to bring in something you dont want anymore and exchange it for something else. I can't believe anyone would throw away clothes anymore, because what you dont want someone else is sure to take. (think of all the buttons people must throw away!) I dont think i could buy anything new anymore, unless im looking for something specific. There are way too many used clothes still in good condition for us to go spend a lot on something new.
also, im starting to realize that laura is going away in the fall. I'm going to really miss her. She's the only person i've ever met that i could talk to about anything, right away. We've been friends for 12 years now. Theres not a week i dont talk to her, and i usually see her at least once a week, so its going to be weird not seeing her for months at a time.

awana camp is 20 days away. I'm really looking forward to it, actually. haven't felt this way about camp in a long time. Cant wait to see the milky way.

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