oh, comely

mothers day?

im afraid i didnt make it super special for mine. im glad shes not the type of mom thats like, "oh you didnt get me a card, you must not care."
i do appreciate her. she does a lot for me.

it was weird listening to jeremys message on saturday, how he was saying that you should still be pleasant to your parents and respect them, even when they dont respect you.
i have a terrible time respecting people who dont respect me.
my parents dont respect me a lot of the time. why is christianity so hard?
no, im glad its hard. it'll make the reward in the end that much more magnificent.

(why can i never sleep lately?
im so tired, but really i cant decide if i ever want to sleep sometimes. its very strange.)

i had a really amazing weekend. but when do i not, these days?
so the rents went to pick up clinton on friday. i stayed, thank goodness for work excuses. i love being home alone.
actually, i wasn't home practically the entire time, i left as soon as they did. i dont like staying in one place.

went to second saturday for the first time yesterday. we painted joy junction.
i knew hardly anyone there, but it really didnt matter. we came together anyway, ripping apart packaging to paint brushes and sharing buckets, getting each other water and stuff without even being asked. it was an enormous project, but we got it done in only a few hours. we came together for God.
http://sagebrushmissions.wordpress.com/second-saturday/2nd-saturdays/may-2009/
josh took pictures.
my elbow is throbbing to its own beat. ben gibbard could probably make a song out of it. maybe i will call him up and find out.


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music-
oliver james, fleet foxes
on an aeroplane over the sea, neutral milk hotel
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4TMDLWcHVZc



What a curious life we have found here tonight
there is music that sounds from the street.
There are lights in the clouds,
Anne's ghost all around
hear her voice as it's rolling and ringing through me-
Soft and sweet!
How the notes all bend and reach above the trees.